Why?

Its already 5Feb. From 12Jan till now, so many things have happened. There's so many whys, whys and whys but I guess we'll never know the answer. Many a nights, we will be wondering why and what ifs...what ifs we had done this or done that, would it still happen? We thought things would improve and try to strive to improve each day as it pass, but then we'll think of you and the sadness will start all over again... We don't really believe that's the real you when you did that...but whatever, the deed had been done and we'll only be able to know when we join you in future...